I Didn't Have Time to Practice
Compassion and Loving
Kindness
Or So I Thought . . .
Kitchen
Sink Wisdom
Up to my elbows in
soapy water, I was annoyed. So annoyed with myself, and frustrated. Last night,
I watched the documentary Happy and
first thing today I wanted to do a compassion and loving kindness meditation.
Instead, I spent my
meditation time talking on the phone and cleaning the kitchen that I left a mess
last night. In addition, I created more
mess this morning putting together the bread dough that was rising on the
counter. Measuring cups, spoons, flour, last night’s baking pans, the pastry
brush stiff with butter that had cooled overnight . . . each of them cried, “Wash me!” So I did.
I swabbed the sink,
looked at the clock, and realized I didn’t have enough time to practice
compassion and loving kindness—not today.
Just then the giant
hand of the universe reached out, gave me a little shake and a gentle smack
upside the head, and commanded, “Snap out of it! What are you thinking?”
I reviewed my
morning. My daughter is grieving because a loved friend and former co-worker died yesterday. Our
phone time was spent talking about what she loved about him, how much she’ll
miss him, and just how sad she felt. She had some time to reflect and share before
she stepped into her busy workday.
That mess in the
kitchen? Later today, I’ll attend a service for my friend’s father, who passed
away Thursday. I baked bread to take to the family home following the service.
This morning, I decided to bake yet another loaf.
My heart was heavy
still, thinking about life, meaning, family, friends. But my ears and hands had
been busy. . . busy practicing compassion and loving kindness. I realized didn’t
need to meditate. I already
had.
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