Even If You’d Rather Not
Show up? Sometimes I’d rather not. I’d rather not show up in times of trouble, times of strife, times of heartache. My heart goes out to those suffering, but a part of me knows with deepest certainty that I’m afraid to show up. I’m afraid to see suffering. I’m afraid to help carry the burdens and wipe the tears of someone in pain. I’m afraid of that pain becoming mine.
One time, I did not show up. My fear and pain were too great. Not showing up is one of my most profound regrets. I carry the guilt and shame—and pain—for not showing up. I cannot ever go back and change what I neglected to do. However, what I can do now to ease that guilt, shame, and regret is show up. Because of my lesson learned, I now and in the future will push aside fear and push aside pain. I show up. I will continue to show up.