Cracked
Grace
I
Won’t Tell You I’m Honest
Even
Though I Am (Most of the Time)
“I’m
a person of honesty, integrity, and have high values.” I am suspicious whenever
someone lets me know right away how honest he or she is. I wonder whether
they’re trying to convince me or convince themselves.
It’s
such a cliché, but a person’s actions mean much more and speak much more than
their words. I would never tell someone how honest I am. I would never tell
someone I have integrity. I would never tell someone I have high values. Why?
First, I haven’t felt it necessary to do so and in case I did, I would
hesitate. I have lied on occasion. I haven’t always had the highest integrity
in my dealings with others. I have high values in my mind, but I don’t always
behave in a manner that reflects those high values.
I’m
imperfect. I don’t announce that, either (except in this context). I also don’t
announce my positive traits, often because I’m busy trying to convince myself
that I have them. I’m not particularly humble about my positive qualities, it's just that I
know I’m evolving. Today, I might not be as truthful, or show integrity in
the best ways, or act with my highest values in mind. Tomorrow I will try to do
better with honesty, with integrity, and with living my values. That will take
honesty, integrity, and acting on my highest values.
